Fool.
Blindly talented,
Talented blindness
Creator of realities,
And yet,
Unable to see reality,
As something uncreated
False illusions of intelligence,
A figment of imagination.
Unable to conspire a lie,
Unable to create a doubt,
Multiple hates, multiple times.
Blind,
To love,
To friendship.
Not real,
Shouldn't be real.
Idiot not welcome,
Tolerated,
Never welcomed.
Only idiots mourn stupidity,
Only fools cry for lost dreams.
I cry for both.
(Un poetrized peice)
A fool. That was all I ever amounted to. A simple fool with a talent for being blind. Unable to see what was clearly displayed, unable to accept just once th
Finally off the edge.
Safely on solid ground,
Safe to be alone.
My heart beat with contentment,
My mind relaxed
And my soul began to smile.
But then…
Boom.
I'm standing on near the edge again.
I see you on the other side,
I see your sad smile,
And I want to hold your hand and see you through.
But the edge is there.
If I step out onto that edge,
It will start again.
I will lose bits of me,
As my soul trembles,
Knowing a single breath could sending me falling,
And I would be back to square one.
If I knew you were waiting on the other side,
I would take that plunge,
If I thought you could be with me,
I would gladly fall
One moment,
You're there,
And when I look again,
You're not.
Why can't I see,
The hole you tear in me?
Why do I refuse to believe,
You ever loved me?
One instant,
You're smiling,
And when I grin in return,
You're screaming.
Why can't I cry,
When I need to cry?
Why can't I just leave,
The darkness that surrounds me?
One time,
You smiled at me,
And when I pass you now,
You're eyes turn cold.
The gears echo in my soul,
The cage slams shut.
Nothing left to feel,
Nothing wanted to be
The darkness came slowly,
Letting me sink in.
Slowly,
I faded in.
Soon the darkness surrounded me.
I longed for someone to come.
I shouted,
I screamed,
But no one came.
There was no one.
Soon,
I moved deeper into the darkness,
Forever deeper.
All I heard was the echo of my steps.
All I saw was the merciless darkness.
I stopped,
And shouted one last time.
Suddenly,
A light appeared.
I tried to reach it,
I really tried,
But it was too far,
I had wandered too far into the darkness.
A rift appeared at my feet.
The ledge gave out under me,
I was falling,
Falling.
I saw a rope come with in my reach,
But when I tried to
I tried.
I actually tried.
I failed,
And disappointed everyone I knew.
I can see their faces now,
Filled with sadness,
Anger,
Disappointment,
Or worse,
Pity.
As I remember one, last time,
I think,
How come I never measured up?
I was better than everyone was.
It is my time,
My day,
My last hour.
Do not fail me,
For I have failed myself…
I was found two hours later,
Staring lifelessly at the ceiling.
They did not understand,
They were lost,
They were sad.
I was smart,
I was pretty,
I was perfect in their eyes.
They will never know,
That the standard they set,
Was too high for one person to do alone.
I burn in the hell of my own creation.
Nothing here,
but me.
Nothing hears
my tortured screams.
Even as I seek freedom,
I hesitate at its light.
So comforting is the hellish darkness,
that I can no longer stand the light.
Leave me to this torment.
Leave me to the dark recesses of my mind.
I am not worth the tears
that have been spilt for me.
I am not worth the concern of the few,
let alone the many.
I burn in the hell of my own creation,
yet at the same time I revel in my sanctuary.
Do not remember who I am
nor who I was,
for I have already forgotten them.
Prophecy
A loss of an old world and I wandered alone for so long,
My saviors of another place,
So kind, so strong,
Yet they did not face
The way they were done wrong,
I broke the bonds of the past,
And became the protector.
A peace was cast,
With a home forever.
Nature rejoiced, free at last.
But the protector became lost,
Alone with my mark.
All I saw was frost,
My heart became dark.
My light was my loss.
So alone I felt,
I could not bear to see,
Happiness as it was dealt.
A depression smothered me,
And refused to melt.
A cage became all I knew,
Until it became real.
My hopes became few,
As bars became steel,
There
Falling, I was forever falling. All around me I could see cliffs, and the open sea. Whenever I looked down, however, I could never see the cliff's base, or the water that I would surely fall into. It seemed a long way down; I continued to fall, to forever fall.
The salt air was strong, and the wind below me seemed to bring it up to me. The smell of brine was also strong, but it wasn't as unpleasant as it usually was. It seemed to me that it was more natural, more clarifying, then what one would normally think. It cleared my mind, and I thought of all the things that I would miss when I left. I would miss my friends' faces, I would miss my
Angel
She walked in like there was no one else in the room. Confident, strong, intelligent, one of the prettiest girls in school, they were all hers to claim. She smiled her social smile that didn't reach her eyes and sat down, taking out her books. Instantly she changed from model to scholar in less than a blink of an eye. She was like that, able to focus on a task so completely that she changed from one thing to another.
It was like it with everything. When she babysat the children in her neighbourhood, she their best friend. They all loved her to death. She was one of the only teenagers that they knew who was willing to play with th
Here in my arms,
I am protecting you,
My sister soul.
You see me,
You hold out your hand,
You help me spread my wings,
Makes forever seem real,
Dream so perfect,
Here our paths merge.
You live.
Here in my arms,
You are haunting me.
I am protecting you,
Or am I haunting you?
My sister soul.
I am a ghost to you.
You see me,
You see right through me
You hold out your hand,
Yet unknowingly crush my heart.
You help me spread my wings,
I fall so many times.
Makes forever seem real,
An eternity alone.
Dream so perfect,
Rea
I look and I say,
I am withering in this darkness,
But all you reply is,
But why?
I am bleeding my heart out,
My life slowly trickling away,
And yet you don't try to stop it,
You tear at it more with a curious smile.
The blood trickles down my arm,
And all you can do is stare,
Nothing to say but why,
Not trying to reach out.
I slowly draw the blade across my skin,
Watching the blood well up
All I reply,
'I wanted to carve my soul'
With nothing more to say,
You leave,
Though you said,
I could always count on you.
So now i am left,
Bleeding in the dark,
My soul carved with pain.
Windows On the Outside.... by TheArtfulLost2005, literature
Literature
Windows On the Outside....
Windows On the Outside Looking In
Sitting so peacefully on a window sill,
Eyeing the world as it sees you cry.
Your window becomes your gateway,
Your world, and your prison in hell.
A transparent frame to focus your sight
On the joys of others not known.
You'd love to be with them, but alas
You are a simple outcast behind glass.
As your heavy sigh breathes a canvas
You toy around with your written feelings.
This message, shown to the onlookers,
Will be your communication and aid tonight.
Send them the message that you want out,
Out of this life behind a clear barrier.
Find that the one looking inside your world
Could be your o
Everyone listen up
Everyday the muted silence
Gets Louder still
Sounds shrouded still
Everyday the muted silence
Gets louder still
No one ever says a thing
What happened to free thinkers
They died out long ago
Why won't anyone ever speak up
The world will never know
You have a voice
You have a choice
Don't let the world decide
Which way you should go
You have a voice
You have a choice
You'll let this chance slip by
And to this day
Stay muted
Time keeps ticking by
Will you join the masses
Getting louder now
Ever shrouded now
Letting the muted silence
Grow louder still
And never say a thing
What's happened to the worl
I Can't hear her.
And if I Could...
Would it make a difference?
The blades are dull now...
But somthing far more deadly looms.
Somthing that dosen't really exist...
Falling, slowly falling...
The grief and razors.
lashing across my skin...
Grey...
The color of neutralness,
And helplessness.
Grey blood dripping.
Grey tears falling.
I wish they were black
I See the light...
And I Beg...
Beg it to leave me in my Grief...
The metaphors sting me again...
It Hurts me more than before...
These Chains won't be broken...
Held... held in place...
Held in place by fear and comitment...
Truly dead inside
The chains tighten
Cries
Current Residence: In the back of your mind Favourite genre of music: If I can sing to it, its all good Operating System: Windows XP MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player Skin of choice: GOO! Favourite cartoon character: Utena and Anthy, and Ami! Personal Quote: Its all a matter of perspective
People! i exist! MUAH HA HA HA HA!!!
anyway, i do have a bunch of drawings i want to put up, some of which... most of which is yuri stuff. Its so pretty one of them. It has a whole story potential about it, which hasn't been written. In the picture, a angel and a fairy are leaning in to kiss each other.
But of course, fairies and angels never did get along... and since the fairy is a warrior fairy, trouble happens *the type of wings fairies have is based on what they are. If they are royalty, they have four tips. If they are warrier fairy they have three. Normal fairies have just two.*
Angel : what about the others?
Fairy: I don't care.
Okay people. I have a favour to ask of you all.
Friends of mine have made a bet with each other. One said they could get a picture of one of them to look good the other said no.
Please help them by critiqueing ~Slaave (https://www.deviantart.com/slaave)'s photos. all four are part of the bet. It would be much appreciated.
Fera
Do you know what? I'm not gonna take Swirling Emotions down, cause i LIKE swirling emotions.
On another note, i may or may not submit soon. i dunno yet. But when i do, it'll be good.
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